Thursday, April 7, 2011

15- Questioning

"Why do we never get an answer
When we're knocking at the door?
With a thousand million questions
About hate and death and war."

Micron Pens and Watercolors
On Illustration Board
2.5x3.5 inches

I have a lot of questions on my mind lately. Like, when will my questions be answered? When will I understand why there's so much frustration and anger between parties.

The hate is what makes me want to just... give up. There's no reason for it. I don't even know anymore.

Why me? Why am I trapped in this spiral with the great wise Slender Man hovering over me day in and day out? Kelly says that it's something abou splitting. I don't know how I feel about that. Maybe I'm more comfortable with becoming like Him than I realized. That right there scares the living shit out of me though.

Why my parents? Why did my parents die? What did they do? Is it the whole fact that they just weren' in the safe haven? Or is there more to it than that? Thing hasn't been here. I've not seen It. Only Slendy's been here. And Todd. I like Todd. I like that he's here. I dunno. I feel safe. Though in the end it makes me worry about Bran. I want her to be safe.

I'm so confused right now. I don't feel like I've slept. I've got classes to deal with. Brennon's taking Dean and Candice to the school to sign up for the classes so they can finish this semester.

After my classes I'm making plans for the wake this weekend. Dean was saying something about birthday parties next weekend. I just want the stress to end and I want to relax and just... enjoy myself.

I don't know when that'll truly happen though... cause right now I just want to off myself.


  1. I've got one.

    Where in god's name did all the gamejackers and trolls suddenly come from?

    ~ Branwen

  2. I... think that kinda went along with my first question? maybe? I dunno.

    You gor Dean's e-mail right? What did you think of that idea?

  3. Why not TURN off the computer and take a nice walk? That'd be nice...I don't take walks anymore, but they're still fun. Don't off yourself. That's bad. I bet you couldn't even die if you tried. Not that I'm trying to encourage you with reverse psychology.

  4. Apologies for the double comment, Aiden, but I've been wondering - why do we call them gamejackers?

  5. I'd rather off my brother right now.. and kinda myself. Sis has locked herself in her room due to our being teasing jackasses.

  6. As for the other part of that... I... have no clue.

    What IS a gamejacker?

  7. Trollolololols like Tom and Co. on "Trying to reconcile".

  8. I'm pretty sure. Ygg is making me doubt myself now.

  9. Trollolololol?

    Well then....


  10. ...what the hell Sam?!

    I don't understand.

    And I'm really confused right now.

  11. Tom was being like...half troll. I think. It was absolutely ridiculous. I decided it would be better not to intervene.

    I dunno.

    Yeah, I got the email. I applaud the idea.

    @ Sam: I warned you about stairs bro. I TOLD YOU DOG.

    ~ Branwen

  12. guys are confusing me....

    and that 'pchooo' noise? Is driving me nuts. Ugh. She's really pissed at us.

    Bran we may need your great teaching ability to help teach Sam why it's not cool to joke around with posting code. :\ I'm relatively annoyed.

  13. Homestuck. MSPA. Andrew Hussie.

    And I left her a comment.

    ~ Branwen