Moving too fast...

Everythig's moving and happening too fast. Before I left for class for the day we got a call from the Fire marshal. He wanted to talk to Me or Brennon. Columbus is cool like that. they understand and are accepting of same sex couples. So Brennon went on my behalf and took Dean and Candy as well. They needed out of the house and we needed to get transcripts so they could transfer to a school up here since they'll be living with us.

We're waiting to hear from the people that mom and dad put a will through or whatever.

We're not sure what we're going to do for a burial whatever. See. The house was flattened. By time we got there it was fully engulfed in flames and crumbling in on itself. Within 30 minutes all that was left was ashes and pools of melted metal and plastic and what have you. Get this though. An average house fire burns as 1000 degrees. It's hot enough to shatter brick, melt metal but it usually can be stopped before that takes place. It takes at least a few hours of burning for everything to be turned to dust like that. A Cremation chamber burns as 1600 degrees and has to burn for 2 hours to completely cremate the human body. The fire that took my parents and the house only lasted maybe 45 minutes to an hour. by time the fire department got there everything was gone. They're opening an investigation and believe it's arson/homicide. (duh?) But I know they won't find anything and will have to close it. Even so, the house was gone in a 45 minutes. the houses across the street and next door had the siding melted. The fire burned much hotter and faster than should have been possible they says. neighbors and witnesses say that it just was sudden they had heard screaming for help and then the whole house ignited. Just burst into flames.

I just feel so sick. So gross and disgusted. We don't even know what we're going to do. All my grandparents on that side are dead of have disowned my parents for their followings. Our family was always Brennon's family. That's where we spend the holiday and everything. I'm just so... lost and confused. I don't even know what to do.

I'm twenty-one years old and my parents are dead. They're gone. It wasn't supposed to be like this. Not like this. they were supposed to see me and Brennon get married. See us be happy. And now... this.

I have to go. I just... I need to start making preparations. We're going to have a wake and we're going to have a ceremony for their journey to the summer land.... I just... did their souls make it? Or... did It eat them....? That's the most troubling part of this whole thing.

I don't know what I'd do without Taben and Ryan here right now. I hope Brennon and Sam and Dean get home soon. I need them.