Saturday, April 16, 2011

Disturbing dreams

Really REALLY disturbing dreams.

I tossed and turned all night lastnigh. Slept like shit. And the dreams were just... bad.

Slendy and It were after us. And they were stabbing us through with their tendrils.
In the end everyone was killd except me... and I started going insane due to all those I cared about being dead.

Woke up. It's raining. Won't be able to go outside like I was hoping to and go through the woods. There's this hilly area with trees that is just... calling to me. I want to go there.

This is the hill area. There's a swamp and a huge thicket between where I was standing when I took this picture and there.

This is the specific tree that's calling to me. I just... need to go to it and see it.
I don't know why, I just do.

I need to get some of the other pictures I've taken of our woods posted. Still trying to convince Taben to let me post the ones with him in them. I'm gonna go and... work on art I guess.

I'm just not feeling anything today. I just feel like a failure. Yggy's gone. Frap's gone. I can't help but feel like it's all my fucking fault somehow. How many others am I going to loose from this?

...the answer....? Probably everyone...


  1. Hah. You're funny.

    Given the outcome of most everyone else in this big ol' world that's had to deal with dear ol' Da... what do you think our actual probabilities of 'winning' are?

  2. Quite high, if you listen to the dreams. They can tell you a great deal when you know how to analyze them.

  3. Quite high for me maybe. But what's the purpose of seeing it through and surviving if I loose everything dear to me?

  4. Well, well, I thought I was the one with the tricky questions. No, the purpose of it is - the chance to get it back.

  5. Heh, the chance to get it back...? Maybe if people could come back from the dead I'd believe that. Last I checked though, that's not something that can be done.

  6. Frap's not...GONE gone...but it doesn't look to be boding well on his blog.

    And nobody on my side is dying if I can help it.
    Us five/six? WE'RE WINNERS.

    That's the way to look at it.

    ~ Branwen

  7. Oh, truly, Aiden? Think of, for example, zerosage, amongst countless others.

  8. Anyway, I've said too much without a return. My job is to inquire, not inspire.

  9. Bran, It's hard. It's really hard for me right now. I have no clue what the hell to do with anything.

    I wish I could feel like a 'winnder' cause I sure as hell don't.

    Guess, Zero's stated that he never died, that he went quiet and fell into a depression cxause he failed. And now, he's trying to kill everyone. Fizzbomb also stated she was never killed. She was converted. I don't know of any other that have come back from the dead... If only it were that easy, right? Maybe I'd just give i and let everything take over.

  10. Well...perhaps. I am almost certainly sure, however, that Fizzbomb is dead. Just - just believe me. Plenty of people have come back from the dead.

    On a side note, I believe there was something watching you when you took the first picture; look to the right side for a brown shape.

  11. This isn't General Hospital or All My Children. This is real life. Sorry to disappoint.

    And bringing up the full sized picture and looking at it... those are just old dead leaves. Once again, sorry to disappoint.

  12. Oh, do not speak to me of "real life", Aiden. That is something I have more experience in than thee.