I'll be hapy. Happy to get the hell out of here. To start classes again. So restless. I want to get out and just run. Seriously considering walking to the park and just running through the field. It'd be fun.
I feel so helpless... and uncertain. And confused. And restless.
One thing I forgot to mention to Todd. Don't randomly show up at my college in the mask. You might get jumped. or laughed at. You'll fit in well enough with just your hoodie. Alo no appearing in the middle of classes unless it's my first one. Art History is such a load of bull. At lunch breaks Taben and I will walk the loop around the pond. We'll talk to you there. I'll be expecting you to meet up with us.I'm sorry I'm a noob at all f this. I'll get the hang of it just please be patient with me. I hope to be a better... whatevr you'd call me than you had before. Can't bring myself to say master... so don't have to call me that. I'm Aiden. just call me that.
And fuck. Fuck fuck fuck. How do we help Joce. There's got to be a way. Must be a way. Fucking fuck hell Fuck. I want to help. help help help.... How how how. Think think think. FUCK!
I should be able to put to use what I have. I should should should should. But I'm just a helpless thing. A helpless fucking pawn. Fuck fuck fcuk. No I'm not a pawn! I'm me. I'm Aiden.
Thank the Gods next week I start back to classes. I'll have something to do with myself. I'll be able to think. Think think think. Art art art.
What aboyut Ygg? I have to help Yggy. And Bran and Seth. Skyler. She still has Rat stalking her. Can't let Rat get her. Candice and Dean. What about them. Slendy Gods dammit! Gods dammit leave my siblings the fuck out of this!
I want to cry. I want to break down and cry. I want to be normal again. Normal. Normal...
I love you guys. I can't do this. Can't do this. I can't... I want to try and save you all. save save save.
Who's going to save me....?